my life part 1

why do i have to. be in this type of relationship it seems like he jst uses me for one thing bt i love him bt i jst can't take it no more jacob abuses me really bad bt especially in front of my kids by the way my names christina I'm 17yrs old. i live in new york with my boyfriend named jacob perez i wish tht my life would jst get better for me and my kids plz help me plz someone