Hi, I am Human.

I have always been human. long before this word became so popular and everyone is having it in their Bio on Instagram. I have been more humane than most of the people surrounding me even from very early age! I believe it's purely because of that, I have always been excluded. I was never anyone's favourite. I was simply too much to handle. Too strict. Too Right. Too kind. That's in early age is never fun. Apparently it's still not fun in adulthood. Being Authentic, being different and being myself has always gotten me the second place. Now I don't know why people keep saying that being yourself is the most precious thing ever if it's that unappreciated! but people say a lot of things now a days while they purely mean the opposite. Sometimes they don't mean anything at all, they're just following a trend! Anyways, Being myself, despite the fact it's been my hardship, it's something that I've never regret it for a second. And I believe it's the reason behind every good thing I have or experienced in my life. That doesn't mean It was an easy ride. It also doesn't mean I am done struggling or I know myself or understand how it works 100%. I don't have a clue how to take control of my life. And despite the fact I am a very educated, reasonable and sensible person, despite the fact I have most of the questions answered. I am still struggling and I am in pain. I don't know where I am in my life, what's my purpose, why I am not happy and in peace with myself and in my life, what I should do to get out of this dilemma and most of all, When these voices in my head are going to stop. I wish I can take life more lightly, worry less, stop stressing and overthinking. To a point my conscious self is somehow separated from my subconscious self. I decided I will write, talk , do whatever it takes to get all these emotions and ideas outside my little poor helpless tired brain. Maybe when it's all out, I will have some space to breath.. .