Just think

Do you ever just lay in bed, and just think about how, if you didn't say hi to him in the hallway,
that one time then you wouldn't have became friends,
then started liking each other,
then start dating,
then have the best times of your lives, Together going to the movies,
Meeting each others parents,
Breaking rules for each other,
late night car rides,
then planning your whole future together, that you wouldn't feel this way right now crying your heart out,
Breaking down,
wanting to crawl in a hole
And just blame yourself for everything, hating yourself for everything that you did wrong
And not cherishing the times you had together.
Just think about the laughs and smiles you shared,
the way he said your name,
the scent of him,
they look he gave you when he finally saw you,
the warmth of his skin on yours,
his arms tightly around you,
The touch of his lips on yours.
And you just miss it all, but now you guys just walk past each other in the hallway like strangers and every time you see him your heart just aches and you feel like you're never going to get over him because he was the best thing that ever happened to you.
You just have no motivation or hope...