mahomies on the loose

I'm a 15 yr old girl
when i was maybe 12 my mother read my diary and completely threw away my feelings and told me they were wrong. She lost all of the trust she once had. This is sort of my way of controlling my feelings. I'd rather freely show and distribute my inner thoughts than have them taken and picked apart. I don't really think anyone will see this but if you do just don't judge me please I've really had enough of that to last a few millenia.