The day I lost her

All my life I wondered why God had created me. At the moment though I am furious with him. My life I feel, has no meaning anymore. Not since my mom had died suddenly when I was and am 11 years old from a rare type of pneumonia. I had no relatives, my dad took off when I was a baby. So I had to begin to build my life...Alone. [ This is set in the rejuve universe. If you dont know it you will learn as you read]