Panic attacks (part one)

Please, if things like suicidal thoughts, attempts and cutting trigger you, please do not read this book, I do not wish to encourage actions such as previously mentioned, I am a graphic person and like to go into extreme detail, so if these things trigger you, or you don't like graphic stuff, I ask and advise that you please don't read. If you are depressed/have anxiety, etc, I advise that you seek help, it's your choice and I can't force you, but things can get better, so I do advise that you talk to someone, or ask/seek help.