Prologue

There he is, a godly man stands in front of me. My heart is beating so fast that it feels like it will explode out of my chest. I have never felt like this before, I don't want this. It's a bad thing that I'm starting to feel, I'm becoming vulnerable. No, I have to suppress my feelings. I don't want to be hurt again, and what if father finds out? I'll become a dead meat if he does, I don't want more cuts and bruises. There's so much my weak little body won't be able to take another. This has to stop, it is a sin! Do not think about it, I need to be strong. I have been through things like this, I can suppress my feelings. I have absolute control or, so I thought...