saudade → shawn mendes (ii)

[sequel to egotistical]

[on hold]

𝐬𝐚𝐮𝐝𝐚𝐝𝐞 ➙ 𝘢 𝘯𝘰𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘨𝘪𝘤 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵

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"When you've had your heart broken by your own stupid mistakes, lyrics tend to flow out of you like a river breaking the dam. You write about the nostalgia, you write about the love you felt so intensely that your heart pounded out of your chest, and you write about the life changing heartache. The pain. Part of you wonders if you deserve it, if you deserve the ache in your chest that just doesn't let up. I still haven't gotten my answer for that. I messed up horribly, but does that really mean I have to suffer day in and day out? Who knows, maybe I do deserve it. A heartbreaker deserves heartbreak, right?"

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