Dismal.

Warning: This story might contain triggers to some people containing a difficult background including suicide , thoughts of the afterlife, manic depression , drug usage , hints of drug overdose , alcoholism , self-harm , Being hit by transportation, lucid dreaming , bridges , water ,swearing , loneliness , OCD disorders and Anxiety.
Furthermore I must state that this story does not represent my own life and the works are completely fictional as I know I will be asked that question by others who know me.