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ni·hil·ist
ˈnīələst,ˈnēəlist,ˈnihilist/n

noun:
a person who believes that life is meaningless and rejects all religious and moral principles.
"dogmatic atheists and nihilists could never defend the value of human life".

Y/N is a nihilist
(s)he asks their self
" why are we alive for us to die? "