Author's Note

"I felt them again all at once. Guilt. Desperation. Despair. Distress. Depression. Madness. Bitterness. Self-hate.
Fuck. I still love Him. I hate myself. Tears unbiddingly escaped. My body wracks as I sob.

Then it all goes black."

David Walliams and his family left UK for US. What could be the reason of leaving his life behind abruptly? Can he return to UK after months of adjusting to his new life?
A story of love, loss, and forgiveness.

(Title inspired by Calum Scott's track from his new album "Only Human" named 'What I Miss Most'-story's a bit inspired by this song, too.)