love an impossiblity

I am a gay i know i can never be happy the acceptance i seek can never be fulfilled my life is as parched as the vast stretch of sahara .....
The water of happiness i wish to drink i know is an illusion that will turn to sand when i drink it burning and bruising my throat,
I try to be kind but my friends are like moon they appear close but when i try to reach out to them do i realise a lightyear of distance in between us
But this are not tales of a emperor or of a popular i know i can always be half happy putting on facades painting my melancholy with smile .... these are tales of a fag...........
*chuckles humorlessly*