Ayla meets jimmy and it begins...

I never thought that I would be pregnant at 17. When the doctor first told me I was so scared and afraid. My ex boyfriend Jimmy was two years older then me and abusive. He would hit Me and cheat on me he was always verbally abusive calling me names and making me feel like nothing. I had had enough and had decided to move on with my life and leave. I had left him two months ago I had finally sorted my life out. I had a job and was in a good place. The last two weeks while out dwith my friends I had begun to feel funny and sick I thought maybe I was coming down with something after the last weekends sickness hadn't left on the Monday that's when I had decided to go and see a Dr. It was his idea to take the pregnancy test I had always been care full and I thought there was no chance I would be pregnant, but I was wrong. I felt happy scared and dread all at once having a baby as a teenager was not what I had expected for life. especially with a narrsastic abusier who I had finally escaped. This is a true story of my journey through life. Its a book full of pain love loss family and friends. This is not the usual teenage pregnancy. Please be aware that it will contain scenes of violence and loss which may upset some people. It may not all make sense to some people and it will not be edited so please excuse this. I am writing to tell my story and to help me heal even after ten years some pain never dies.