i... my birthday is coming up

So i have so much shit to say. Mostly stuff to say to people but i won't say it to their face because I'm afraid they won't like me anymore, even if it's just explaining to them how they made an honest mistake that upset me.I just shut my mouth and keep it inside until i break and I broke. So, I'm making this to write down all my rants. I hate how when i rant to myself no one hears my thoughts and i just want someone to listen. Some people i know may be willing to listen but i can't tell anyone inside of my little bubble because then that bubble will pop (idk wtf this metaphor means tbh).Basically what I'm trying to say is that no one will trust me or tht people won't accept that a close friend of theirs was ever wrong, or that no one will actually listen. I high-key think i need a therapist to listen and respond to what i say, but my parents are agaisnt therapy for some reason. Yet instead of just writing some emo journal, i turn to wattpad. i have no idea what i'm doing but i'll use fake names and hope my friends don't find this.

this might just turn into me talking shit about everyone but eh who knows.

i'm pretty sure this won't get reads, unless i somehow interest you with my troubles, but i dont wanna forget the tea

also i can't find a good cover