I have always loved you. (BxB)

I'm always shy around cute guys, they will talk to me or take me out to a date but I never talk or look at them I'll push them away into..That's all about to change I'm 16 year old guy who's gay and found my love of my life his name Is Collin he is older then me but I love him he was a new kid and he found out that I've been abuse by my dad he cares about me a lot then anyone he may ask me out to fast but one day that change my whole life change it was weird, and sad at the same time I didn't know what to do anymore I cut and cut into I move away to a different place without Collin..