My life befor her

Have you ever fell in love with a sound of a person, a sound that doesn't exist anymore with a person who lived hundreds of years before you well i have.
I fell in love with her laughter the softens of her vice and the crying she did when she was in so much pain that she couldn't handle.
What will i do about it i have no clue but she is the one who taught me that there is always a way to happiness.