one

it was dark that night, as the clouds from another planet's atmosphere pass over the windows of his room. it's a small bit past the middle of the night, and kylo ren is lying awake in his bed, sweating off his misery. he senses something about to happen that will change his life forever, but doesnt know whether it be good or bad. he determines it will be a person, most likely a girl, and she will affect his life in an indescribable way. his perception of her coming was it would be in the following day, and that's why he was so nervous. he didn't know if his choice to join the order was right, and he knows this..girl will guide him to the right one. he just cant wrap his head around the idea. he has never felt love, (well never allowed himself to feel it) and he fears that he will not know what to do. nevertheless, he slowly drifts to sleep in pocket-sized excitement.