0: it begins, all with the sense of endless woes.

𝐃azai x reader | They say that the act of learning, not being, but learning, to be human is linked with imitation, linked with role-modelling: meaning, a human being only became a human being by imitating others. And yet, why did you feel so "other"?
You can't do this any more. You want to wake up. This is just another manifestation of your execration: your reality is just another nightmare. The vengeful God, implanted in your belly by the decadence around you, will be eaten in the maelstrom of grief and loneliness.