setting for the story

He was who i want....
i still love bella in the sisterly way i always have i just lied and said i was inlove to get to him....

he would never want me im broken and im imperfect, i could never call him mine because he is out of reach....

my dream is to ask him to hold me and kiss me and us to be inlove, but my reality is that he will hate me,everyone will hate me.
so why stay when i could be gone