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YUVAAN SINGHANIA
Digvijay Chakraborty is my constant
The silence that steadies me
The presence that holds me together when everything else feels too sharp to touch
I rule empire with an iron grip, wearing perfection like a second skin
To the world, I am untouchable. Unbreakable. Flawless.
But with him, I unravel
I cling
I demand
I burn with a possessiveness I never question
Jay lets me be messy. Lets me be weak
Lets me fall apart in his arms without asking why I need him so badly
I tell myself it is friendship
Because admitting otherwise means admitting I am already lost
I hate the way my chest tightens when someone else gets too close to him
Hate the way I need his attention like oxygen
Hate how the thought of losing him feels like death
And still, I never once ask myself what that means
Because some truths are too dangerous to name
DIGVIJAY CHAKRABORTY
I am built to control chaos
To dominate systems
To erase threats before they ever surface
Feelings are never part of the equation, until Yuvaan Singhania
He is the only imperfection I allow in my perfectly ordered world
Clingy. Emotional. Unpredictable
Mine.
Loving him is never a choice
I love him quietly. Carefully
With the kind of devotion that expects nothing in return
Because the worst thing about loving your straight best friend
Is knowing that honesty can destroy the only home you have ever had
I never plan to confess
Because loving him means choosing him over my truth
I watch him lean into me without realizing how deeply he owns me
Watch him demand everything from me and call it friendship
And I give it to him. Every time
Because I don’t just love Yuvaan Singhania, I have always belonged to him
But when the world starts pulling him away,
when love finds everyone else,
even silence begins to hurt too much.
And the question I have avoided my entire life finally demands an answer:
Is loving him enough…
If it means never being chosen?
**Can be read as stand alone or as a part of Hearts series**