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- Parts 69
You're insane." I spat. "So fucking..." I let out a broken sob, everything in me tightening into coldness.
"I deserve it," he murmured. "If you hate me, just-"
"I don't hate you," I snapped, the words tearing out of me faster than I could stop them. "I hate that I still worry. I hate that even after everything, my first thought was if you were okay. Do you know how humiliating that feels?"
He stared at me like he didn't recognize himself.
"I worry for someone who doesn't worry back."
"I-I do. Fuck, I really do. I just don't show it-"
"Oh, you show it, alright. How was your experience high, hm? Did you enjoy your night, because I sure as hell didn't."
He caught himself on the edge of the table, head dropping. He nodded over and over, like if he stopped he'd shatter. "I'm scared," he admitted, barely audible. "When it gets quiet in my head, I don't know who I am without it."
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... 𝐎𝐑 𝐈𝐍 ׂ ׂ╰┈➤ You didn't know much about his existence until you got assigned together for a final Senior year project. Midnight, the boy who walks around with bruises and a mind too far gone to be polite. Or rather, Jeon Jungkook, the boy you found yourself doing anything to heal. Jeon Jungkook, the boy who crushed on you since the seventh grade and yet, he can't see himself having a strong enough future to be breathing in a year's pass although you insist it's time to runaway with him and leave every single problem behind.
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|Dr*g addict Jungkook x Fem! Reader|
[FIRST PERSON POV]
Warnings: HEAVY ANGST(happy ending), HeAvy slow burn, trauma, physical harm caused by self and/or others, smut, language, violence, underage drinking, suicide attempts, DRUG CONSUMPTION , stupid fathers.
Word count : 152k